Cry of the Desolate

Dear God,

i never want to go on another life expedition by myself again!
for some reason, i thought we were  in this together....
@what point did i get ahead of You?
where exactly did our steps fall out of sync?

am i still so clueless and disconnected from you that
i am unable to recognize Your voice? or
am I so disconnected that i can't understand what you are saying?
or worse still, are my desires so loud that they have rendered me deaf?

i walk around with this blanket of shame around me,
look, it's threatening my peace and suffocating my spirit.
father, please lift this cloud of dis-ease that is engulfing me.
... drowning my joy and darkening my days.

Dear Lord, please restore my joie-de-vivre, i pray!